Hi, Richy
I too wish you well, and that you work through this. Positive outlook may not be the total cure, but I'm convinced that it has a huge factor in how people fare when faced with adversity.
I don't know if it will inspire you or not, but have you ever come across www.marce-music.com? I host this site on behalf of another synth friend of mine MarcE.
MarcE was a very prolific programmer of patches for the Yamaha EX5 (and the AN1x before that). In 2001 he fell quite ill and sold all his synths. In order to give something back to this person who had given the EX5 community so much, I organized a series of musical tributes where people in the EX5 community made songs using MarcE's patches and we delivered the music back to him.
You can read about the tributes here, which ran annually for five years, and I think stands as a testimony for the altruism and all that is good with the internet as means for bringing people together.
http://www.marce-music.com/tributesAbout.htmlAnd all the music is freely available for inspiration.
The music an the community support I think did help MarcE; in 2012 he is still with us as he has a fighting spirit and the love of his family. I hope the thought that MarcE has been positive in his adversity might help you in some small way
Cheers
Derek
--- In AN1x-list@yahoogroups.com, "richardon" <richardon@...> wrote:
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> Hi Guys
> Many thanks for your wishes. I think as musicians we have a special believe and wish to collect such
> positive energy you wrote to me. The reason i made music was to show other ones this energy. But my mistake was to make music professional. Finally to get aware that i cant earn the money necessary for a whole life (Now I am 50 years old,started with 14 ) At the end i had to make jobs that have to do younger ones or DJ (Fasching, Big Karneval ) Tomorrow i am in Heidelberg and they will try to detect what kind of cancer has destroyed my backbone.Certainly its located in the lung.
> Heidelberg ist very professional and there are chances. My body is far away from giving up and i will follow him. Negtive energy everyone has to collect unfortunately collect during live too must not be the winner in any case.
> That wasnt the last upload :-) Cant be shure but i am full of hope.
> Today i woke up with horrible pain. Couldnt sit and stand any more.Now its late and i can even write you with a laptop. And ordered an emegency car for tomorrow (130 EUR) instead my sister doing this job. Dont have to drive in sitting postition. There are always solutions.
> best regards richy
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